Something Good #17

this funny thing I've been doing

Hi, I'm Nina Iordanova and this is the 17th edition of Something Good, a newsletter filtered through my 🧠, 🖐, and ❤️. Coming your way every two weeks, I hope you find something good here.

I’m still mad about my hair but when I went to see my therapist again for the first time in two years I somehow managed not to bring it up. It’s just a silent inner rage that’s a part of me now. I guess I don’t need to actively think about it anymore. I guess.

Instead, I planned to have a 5 minute chat where I’d say “hey haha there’s this funny thing that I’ve been doing for months where I don’t eat all day and just try and drink coffee instead.”

And then SHE’d be like, “oh haha that is funny, you should probably eat” and then we’d end the session early and she’d be really impressed by how much I’ve pulled my life together in the past two years.

Somehow, we went in what one might say is the total opposite direction and were suddenly in a deep dive about why I was refusing to eat.

Anyway, long therapy session short, it’s cool to understand what’s at the root of a problem and then see what you wanna do about it. For me this felt empowering, and I’m excited to see what works for coaxing myself back onto the eating train. Maybe it’s better meal prep. Maybe it’s trying new recipes. Maybe it’s ordering in more. Who knows! All I know is I ate vegan cheesecake for breakfast and because there’s just one of me, I’m gonna have it for the next 6 breakfasts too.

I’ve also been trying to imagine what my life would look like if I never meet the right person, if I never get married or have kids. What would I wanna spend my time doing? What are the experiences and meaningful moments I’d remember?

Puppy girl is probably one. What about living in New York? What about moving to Europe? What about travelling more?

If a partner and a family isn’t the thing I build my life around… what would it look like if I built it around me?

Warmly yours,